Amazing Comfort

Everything in the last month has went so wrong. My world flipped upside down and inside out. My plans have dirastically changed. My emotions have been so messed up due to the pregnancy. I now fit in with the rest of the pregnant teenagers. For the last while I have mentally prepared myself to go crazy. There is now only one more problem. It still hasn't happened. I am completely sane, calm, tame, content, and belive it or not, happy. I would be more than happy to be alone for the rest of my life. It sounds kind of depressing- doesn't it? I'm at a foreign level that I'm not supposed to be. Everything is again- peaceful. That drowning kind of peacefullness that I've talked about before.
I have been living with my cousin for the summer, babysitting her kids. Her son, Navarro, and I are really close. He is two years old. It's amazing how caring for someone so young, can help you forget about what is really going on and put aside all the problems in life. So much attention is required and expected from such a small child. It's amazing how the tears that have been fighting to stay in your eyelids for days, can be overcome with laughter from a simple little thing. Just a small jesture or new word or tone from the child brings comfort to your whole body.