Wishie Washie

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Journalling (Aug10/04)

On days when I really miss you,
I tell myself to find you- and work things out.

I realize that whatever happened before matters no more,
Because what I really need to focus on- is how much I care about you.

Then I think- "You havent changed a bit!"
And the pain still hurts too much.

I slap myself across the face,
Numerous times,
Asking myself how I could think such thoughts,
After the brutal past.